Dream Journal: 1999-2000
While awake, I remembered that I usually feel good when recalling
dreams - that thought made me more willing to record them.
(In a dream)
I was walking toward my car as I remembered "focus on what you are doing".
So, I have - looked at the things around me, then, while unlocking the door,
I paid full attention to the process. Thought: "I may learn new things that
way - since I'd be more observant and curious".
Then I woke up and I remembered that I should write down the dream.
It was something about "The underground pipes are about to burst".
I was writing in the Windows Notepad and at the same time found myself
connected to some live radio show, the host wanted me to repeat what I was
writing. That was distracting and computer didn't respond too well.
Then I woke up for real - frustrated that all the text I just typed was
gone - but then realized that I remember the whole experience pretty well!
I am sitting at the bus stop. There's dancing going on - couples
dance on the grass. They are jewish - men are dressed all in black
and have beards (though for most of them beards are obviously fake).
One girl is invited to dance by an older man (with a real beard).
She accepts and later finds out that she actually agreed to marry him.
I went to Taco Bell and there were ladies doing car wash.
They were even less dressed than usual in such cases.
I rode a moped, but I decided to go back home a return with
a car for such occasion :)
Playing chess in a tournament. Position is pretty complicated, but I find
a good move. I make it and go for a walk. When I come back, my opponent
made a move, but something seems wrong - the game is almost hopeless now.
First I think that I missed something, but then I realize that he swiped
few pieces off the board. Opponent gets disqualified and I win.
I'm at the stadium and there's competition - sort of lke x-games on espn2.
Participants have to drive a car thru astronomically different course -
practically impossible. The first driver revs his engine, speeds up,
tries the maneuver and crashes pretty soon.
Second starts moving... I notice that his car doesn't have an engine - he
actually accelarates with his hands. But what he does is incredible.
Every turn, every breathtaking twist - the obstacles give way and he
Then there's a pause. I go closer to the organizer's booth and find out
that they didn't expect anhybody to win the main prize, so they are not
going to give it. There's an announcement: "The last driver was sick...
and his car had no motor - so the results are nullified",
There's a rage among the spectators. They try to enter the field and
affect the decision, while the police tries to capture the driver,
hoping that once he's gone, the people will calm down.
I wake up and think "I had a good dream, gotta record it".
But I feel lazy to get up. I sit on my bed, thinking, "can I type
on the computer without approaching it?".
Then I find out that I didn't really sit - I was laying the whole
time. This happens several times.
(This "false movement" is what helped me to go out of body for the
first time - but today I didn't think to take advantage of it).
There's a planet. It's entire inside is full with mechanisms - huge factory
that manufactures weaponry. The inhabitatns are planning to take over other
worlds. I am a private in the army of this planet. Somehow secret documents
end up in my hands - I try to pass them to my superior, but nobody allows
me to speak up - their discipline is way overboard. Instead they suspect
me of treason. Eventually, high rank commanders come to arrest me - they
are all wearing masks, since they are paranoid too.
At this point I really joined the resistance movement.
Camera folds back - I no longer participate, I watch this on VCR.
In the meantime, on TV there's a competition - sportsmen make
little plastic birds and get them to fly back and forth like
a boomerang. My friend says that he wants to know what happened with the
army, so we look for the remote to rewind. But my grandpa got the other
remote. First it seems like he accidentally presses wrong button, but
then turns out he wants to keep watching the competition.
Magician is peforming, but the act isn't going so well.
He hopes the last trick will make up to it. In it, there are
squirrels and rabbits that do really fancy stuff. But we
found out that he was cruel to animals, we talked to them
and parsuaded them to leave him and go home instead.
I try to feed a piece of candy to the parrot, somebody warns
me: "Don't, he'll bite you!". I ignore the advice and indeed
parrot bites me pretty hard. Ouch!
Tanks are approaching the forest. The woods are dark, but there
seems to be something among the trees. There's command "Fire!"
and all cannons go off, pounding whatever it is inside.
*Found a side benefit in doing this - when I get up I am more often
than not in so-so mood, but recalling dreams seems to improve it!
And if write them down, I actually put more effort into recall*
I'm at the museum. When it's time to leave, I board the elevator.
The lift looks strange - it's a wide open platform. The guy who
services elevator tries to get tips. After everybody gave him some money,
he turns it on and then stops again. I get mad and yell at him.
No result. Then I notice that one side of platform leads to the tunnel,
which goes outside. I tell my brother, who's there with me: "We can
get out this way!"
As I go outside and prepare to climb over the fence, I realize that this is
a dream and go lucid. Immediately I soar into the air. Flying - the ultimate
feeling! I enjoy the air currents and fly for a while.
Then I think: "Maybe I should try doing something serious".
So, I descend and talk to some guy. He's going to a test in college.
Surprisingly, I am almost able to read his mind.
Then I talk to a lady who runs a club where "lethal boxing" (with metal
in gloves) takes place.
Again, I hear her very clearly and almost know ahead of time what
she's gonna say.
It never been this way in awake life - I attributed this to the fact
that I didn't try to second-guess people while asleep. And my mind
wasn't racing, so I was receptive.
I look at the newspaper for a good place to go to. Find one music club and
go there. I am surprised that russian rock music is playing. It's DDT - one
of the best known bands. My brother is there with a handheld tape recorder.
However, it's not DDT who's singing - few guys who are not very
confident. The singing gets worse - they get quieter and start forgetting
the words. Eventually they stop. I go into the corridor and talk to
some man who says he's looking for molecules in his beard.
At this point I wake up. That's a scenario from my previous dream -
I fell asleep waiting for my friend, owners of the house didn't know
that, put blanket over me and were later surprised to find out that
I am there.
As I wake up for real, I realize that the song I heard at the club
is what's actually playing at the moment on my stereo.
We enter an ice-cream shop. First it seems like it's abandoned - no
salesman and menu on the wall is empty. Then he shows up and we get
some sweet stuff. Soon it's time to go back to class. We go outside.
There's a fence with little door in it. Narrator explains, that this
kind of fence is used in the military - as soon as motion detect senses
somebody, automatic cannon fires. My friends decide it doesn't apply
to them and climb over. I am a little wary, but I do the same.
Nothing bad happens. Friends are far ahead of me, I try to catch up and
see that they are on the other side of the river. First I am confused -
how did they cross ? Then I see that this is actually a pond and I can
go around it.
There's a ceremony - a man is being made king of Brazil.
Later, there's a reform - words in the language are being
changed. The king resists the change, so people try to sabotage
his garden. For example, they pull out good carrots and insert
bad ones instead - so that he knows that old word for "carrot"
no longer works.
Me and my parents are riding a train. It goes slowly and
there are fruit trees right by the window. Father leans out
the window to get few apples. They are strange - once I
try one, turns out, it's actually a muffin, and a very good
one at that. Later we pass the same place with a lady
friend of mine. There's cafe on the other side on the road.
We order and then I tell her to wait, while I get couple
more muffins off the tree. She asks: "Don't you know you
have to pay for them ?". I go to the cash register and
pay, including the one I already ate.
I decide to listen to some of the tapes that I have bought
but haven't heard yet. As I look for my old tape recorder,
I find a bunch of things that are collecting dust - some are
worth another look, another just taking space there.
Somebody is trying to shoot me. I overpower him and twist
his arm. Me and my GF are taking him to the cops.
Unfortunately, there's no police station nearby. We enter
a rental place, talk to the lady and she tells us where to
go. We go there, but on half way the criminal turns into a
little dog. I worry, whether police will believe my story.
There are roadblocks everywhere. Eventually we get stopped
too. The officer checks our car and declares that it's been
stolen. I try to explain that this is wrong, that I am
leasing the car. He says: "Then you'll have to pay
remaining lease amount right away". I think: "Big deal,
there's only 1 month remaining - $280".
I am in the movie theater, the show hasn't started yet. Few
rows ahead I see actor who played Maynard (Gilligan) - he
looks like he did before, except he is old and gray. He has a
little son who looks like a mini copy of a beatnik Maynard
was. Then I find out that "Dobie Gillis" has been brought
back to TV - and there are new episodes. Dobie and Maynard
wear hats/handkerchiefs on their heads, so you can't even tell
they got older.
Then they become Laurel and Hardy instead. Hardy is
planning to kidnap the woman he loves, but she happens to be
somebody's wife. They are ambushed, policemen and some
unknown men take them away. Then 2 real criminals attack
the whole copmany to free the prisoners. They overpower
everybody, but one of the opponents is a real strongman.
They show a mirror to him, he decides that he can't fight
himself and surrenders.
It's midnight, New Year's eve. I go outside and am
surprised to see how many people are out there. It is also
strangely light - sun begins to rise. It confuses me, but I
somehow rationalize it. Kid's soccer team is plaing on the
stadium and their coach tries to persuade me taking over his
I am riding my moped home, going down Olive. I see a large
group of people. I stop by to see who they are. Turns out
they are actors, who came from Russia, but don't have a
contract and don't even speak English. They want me to help
them. I am trying to make some calls, but they won't even
let me do that, so I get annoyed and run away from them.
On the other side of the highway there's an agricultural
grain elevator. Two men get on it, ride all the way up and
I'm at school. We're a having a test. Teacher (woman) is
very playful, as she asks questions, I also get into good
mood, draw some pictures in addition to answers and even
look into textbook once when she turns away. When we submit
the papers, she assigns me to pass around 10c postage
stamps. I do. Stamps have pretty trains on them and I see
that other students also look at trains in the catalogs.
When I am done she tells ne to collect everybody's papers
and put into envelopes. I sit down and yell for everybody
to bring papers to me. I feel very relaxed and like being
center of attention.
I'm talking to a girl (she could be the same as teacher in
previous dream). She told me that she run away from home,
was very lonely for a while, then her best friend (girl)
found her, came to live with her and filled the void. Then
the friend got sick and passed away. But she knows that
real love will come and she'll never be alone. I feel
incredible connection when she says that. I hold her hand
and we cry. woo-woo-woo-woo-woo!
I was playing a game - total immersion into virtual reality.
There was a bar and a little town around it - some people
were other players, while some were Artificial Intelligence.
Tuesday 11 Jul 2000
There were several guys mocking me. I felt afraid and entered
the school building toget out of sight. While on the stairs, I decided
to turn back and confront them. Suprisingly, none were eager for
face-to-face contact. One of them - the guy who was trying to calm
down his rowdy fellows, turned out to be an angel.
He said that most dream characters are imaginary, while few - gentle
ones - are angels.
Saturday 11 Nov 2000
I had a cool dream about a world that wasn't real and where you could die
and come back, but in slightly different form.
(Sounds like this one, but it was more weird. I remember, it was scary to
die, but I tried to break thru the limits to see if there's spiritual growth
involved - or merely some aliens controlling the whole thing).
There were places like in Midtown Madness game - you could see them, but not
reach them. And there was sort of a Vortex, where you could go to reach the
next level or something. *Trying to remember* - maybe actual physical dying
was a non-standard way, whole going thru Vortex was more expected - almost
like an entertainment.