Tuesday 10/01/96
Web is good for me, since the way I create is via short
bursts of activity.  On the Web, these bursts do not
disappear, but stay on my pages.

Thursday 10/03/96
Imagination is stronger than reality, it's not neccessary to
buy things, I can just fantasize about them.

Friday 10/04/96
I was planning to buy a used moped and worried that I won't
be able to fix it up once i have it.
Now I decided not to buy, and it seems that it was ideal.

Monday 10/07/96
Automatic thoughts in good state of mind:

I am in control
I am making things better
I am getting closer to my goals
I can make positive changes right now
The success is unavoidable
Mistakes can be easily corrected
There's enough time
Somebody stop me!
Easy to feel wonder. Take the Internet - what a great
concept!
Fun when driving, no rush to get anywhere in particular.

*
Another inner conflict.
On one hand - guilt that I am not doing something (=> fear
of consequnces).
On another, fear of action (=> hassle, possible failure).

Redefining from "damned if you do, damned if you don't" to
"blessed if you do...":
I can do something, reach a goal, enjoy the process.
Or I can do nothing, relax, have a good rest, have fun.

When there's feat on both sides, there's one more Fear that
interferes with decision making: fear of making the wrong
choice.
However, when both choices are right, I can't fail!
*
Got caught up bidding on Ebay, bought some old printer, now
I don't know whether I want it.
While I was in a bid war, my opponent seemed the most
important thing.
Now the opponent is gone and I it's just me and my purchase,
which actually was the only important thing to start with.
I get into the fight and once I've won I realize that I don't
want the fruits of victory and I desperately wait for somebody
to come and rescue me.

This is example when time distortion (imagining what I would
feel like in the future) would give me a good idea
whether I want this thing or not.
*
It is easy to do long term project when I know that
things get better with every step. Primer - huge list of
sweepstakes I can enter online - with each one I fill, my
chances of win grow.
*
My friend is right when says: "When you do something
interesting, it makes sense to take a break while you still
have some energy. If I keep on it till I am dead tired,
chances are I won't want to start next time".