Friday 11/22/96 Some quotes from http://www.americanborders.org/borders01.html : "I hate it when people stereotype me, when they don't listen and just sum me up the same way I'd unconsciously summed up Bob: gas-station attendant. No one to take notice of. It slapped my consciousness awake. Maybe that's the way I can look at people as I travel in America. As breakers of stereotypes, as surprises. All of us different, unique, and indefinable." "Similarly, it is ever so difficult to resist grabbing something that you know is going to fall off. Perhaps a plastic instrument cover, a side mirror, a wire flapping loose, a map blowing away. It's against nature, and underneath it all you realize that these things are worth less than the risk of damage or death, and that taking a hand off the grip to catch that something you could go back for, or buy another of, is just not worth it." "Already I was beginning to slip into deep-thought mode. I've never quite been able to meditate, and I think the closest I get to it is when I'm riding on country roads. My active mind is busy with the details of bumps, curves, and engine noise. But somewhere underneath is a smooth track of thought that works itself deeper and deeper into a groove, a downward spiral onto a higher plane." About blood/death: "Is it somehow necessary to view such spectacles in order to confirm that we are alive? The adrenalin rush, the horror, the despair, the elation? What other events allow us to experience such an intensity of emotion, other than death?" "You know, you buy into the system, you're making money, and one day you realize that they've really GOT you. You're captured." "I think he doesn't talk much about himself, which made me curious. Strange how attractive that is. I found myself being pulled in, trying to figure him out." This is how Aloof person type in Celestine Prophecy. "I've known a few people who've given up most of their possessions. I do remember feeling rather naked in their homes, with no toys, or the "screens" possessions provide. I remember a discomfort, but also the joy of distractionless conversations. I remember them letting the phone ring in favor of present company, and I remember thinking that I'd like to try living that way." "When you have come to the edge of all of the light that you know, and you are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, faith is knowing one of two things will happen: there will be something solid to stand on, or you will be taught how to fly." "I ward off danger by saying to myself that people are basically nice, that I'm competent to ride and fix my machine, that natural disasters are rare. It works, I think, because people are reluctant to be mean to someone who wants things to work out well." "But I've worked out what fear means. It means False Evidence Appearing Real." "Following instincts is what this trip is about. For a long time I've made decisions based on what others expect. I'm a free spirit but sometimes I get sidetracked and a lot of what this trip is about is following my intuition." "I fluctuate between confidence and uncertainty, and just then I needed reassurance. That, or confirmation of my unstable state-of-mind from someone of like mind." "When you're stuck somewhere with nothing to do, waiting for someone to show up, every minute they are late is either an irritation or something to worry about." Engine: "And it all works until it gets old or is deprived of something it needs to continue. Just like us." About gossip: "I'm having fun, and they're bored and silly. Let them talk." "So now I know how guys feel when they have to go home and they don't want to. When they would rather be sitting around in a garage, greasy, fixing something, riding it around, making jokes, drinking beers -- when girls seem a huge interruption necessary only because of something so tedious as a previous commitment." "And I wondered, not for the first time, What is this obsession with speed? Everyone agrees that it's great I'm taking back roads and not freeways. That it's great I'm not trying to break time and distance records. But no one else seems to want to do it." On focus: "As I rode, my eyes were drawn to a certain kind of sign. Antique-hounds see Garage Sale and Flea Market signs. Farmers see signs that say Tractors and Feed, and mechanics see Small Engine Repair." "The Buddha, the Godhead, resides quite as comfortably in the circuits of a digital computer or the gears of a cycle transmission as he does at the top of a mountain or in the petals of a flower. To think otherwise is to demean the Buddha...which is to demean oneself." "I argued that physical discomfort is important only when the mood is wrong. Then you fasten on to whatever thing is uncomfortable and call that the cause. But if the mood is right, then physical discomfort doesn't mean much." "I hope later she will see and feel a thing about these prairies I have given up talking to others about; a thing that exists here because everything else does not and can be noticed because other things are absent. She seems so depressed sometimes by the monotony and boredom of her city life, I thought maybe in this endless grass and wind she would see a thing that sometimes comes when monotony and boredom are accepted. It's here, but I have no names for it." "Explore it a little, to see if in that strange separation of what man is from what man does we may have some clues as to what the hell has gone wrong in this twentieth century." "When you want to hurry something, that means you no longer care about it and want to get on to other things." |