Index page
1. Glossary
2. Personal Enthropy
3. Fears and Conflicts
4. More Inner Conflicts
5. Closet Rebel
6. Observations
7. States of Mind
8. Watching my Feelings
9. Past and Future
10. Automatic Thoughts
11. Self and Others
12. Manipulation
13. World as a Game
14. Inanimate Objects
15. Surfing Scientology
16. 90% Power Solution
16. Feeling Resourceful
17. Intent vs Manifestation
18. A Matter of Trust
19. Levels of Evil
20. The Dark Side
21. Tao of Biking
22. Lose-Lose => Win-Win
23. Approval
24. Conversation is Over
25. Annoyance
26. How the Mind Works
27. Empathy - friend or foe?
28. Life is Actually Perfect
29. Compassion, Structure, Inner Judge
30. "I am kind", Feeling Love
31. Procrastination, slowing down
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Thursday 01/02/97
I get slightly annoyed when I meet other fans of a book I
enjoy, but they cannot say anything interesting about it.
Sometimes I get tired of a task, but am afraid to drop it,
since I worry that I won't pick it up agai later.

Tuesday 01/07/97
It sort of motivates me that somebody picks up my good idea
(which I felt lazy to implement myself).
State of worry - I don't like the current state and don't
see a sure way to improve it.
Money saving mode - every potential spending generates a
negative reaction and is more likely to be avoided.
Making a promise gets me off the hook instantly, but it
stays with me and nag me when the person I made promise to
has left.

Wednesday 01/08/97
It's annoying when I am trying to understand something, and
the person I am talking to just keeps saying the same thing
louder, instead of explaining.
Interesting, even though I don't accept other's opionion on
what is 'sharp' or 'cool', but I don't feel confident to
make such decisions myself.

Thursday 01/09/97
Sometimes standing up is enough to get a deep breath and
calm down.
If not, going outside and walking outsied does the trick.
When expectation is heavy and the desired event finally
happens, I don't feel joy, I feel "finally, better late than

Friday 01/10/97
Overload is not a problem when I  remember that all this is
a game.
Responding with evil to evil doesn't bring me neither calm,
nor healing.
Responding with kindness feel unordinary and could be a step
toward higher consciousness.
Refusal to defend myself gives a feeling of strength.
Refusal to prove my innocence weakens the sense of guilt.