Index page
1. Glossary
2. Personal Enthropy
3. Fears and Conflicts
4. More Inner Conflicts
5. Closet Rebel
6. Observations
7. States of Mind
8. Watching my Feelings
9. Past and Future
10. Automatic Thoughts
11. Self and Others
12. Manipulation
13. World as a Game
14. Inanimate Objects
15. Surfing Scientology
16. 90% Power Solution
16. Feeling Resourceful
17. Intent vs Manifestation
18. A Matter of Trust
19. Levels of Evil
20. The Dark Side
21. Tao of Biking
22. Lose-Lose => Win-Win
23. Approval
24. Conversation is Over
25. Annoyance
26. How the Mind Works
27. Empathy - friend or foe?
28. Life is Actually Perfect
29. Compassion, Structure, Inner Judge
30. "I am kind", Feeling Love
31. Procrastination, slowing down
All The Rest
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Tuesday 07/23/96
I noticed anxiety in myself, when there's no new materials
to post on my website.
Today woke up from a cool lucid dream and caught myself
regretting that it's had adult content, so I cannot post it

Here's good approach for adding stuff to website - when I
have something to share, but nobody to tell it to, then
put it on a webpage.
Observation: I am annoyed when things act up unexpectedly.
Result: no air to breathe, no desire to talk to anybody.
Also worry that somebody's watching over my shoulder as I
work, and feeling that I have to explain myself to
Also impatience.
And being unhappy with myself and fear. Full package.

Wednesday 07/24/96
New, positive definition for users who call me for support
and don't know what they are doing:
1) It can be funny.
2) Gives me a chance to practice my 'explanation skills'.
Methods of Entropy:
When my True Self is expressing, enhtropy gives me an
expectation of a specific (positive) reaction from others.
Then, I feel down when reaction is different.
I wonder, can the laughtrack in American TV shows be
explained as an attempt to get approval from outside?
When I plagiarize a funny expression from a book/movie, I
feel it's a good thing - keeping the joke alive.